понедельник, 5 июня 2017 г.

вторник, 18 апреля 2017 г.

9th Grade!!!!

crazyMSB : I consider myself to be a very competent, put together 18 year old. I have a job, real estate classes I am attending, college next year. My life is just beginning to take off. But in the past month or so I have been extremely off focus and it's all because I gravitate to this game. It's on Facebook, called criminal case. I can't talk to anyone in real life as I am far too embarrassed, even to tell my best friend. Because this game is so accessible on my smartphone. I can play it anywhere. I play it at school, at work, with friends, I wake up every 2 hours to utilize my energy in the game. This addiction has gotten way out of hand. I haven't done my real estate homework in 2 weeks because the game. Truthfully I want to play right now. Today I got obsessed, I added about 50 strangers on Facebook so they could give me more energy and I could keep playing. I know cold turkey is the best route. But it's going to be so hard, I feel I have no real life support. I've been forgetting to take my Zoloft because this game is what I do each morning rather than my routine. So without Zoloft in my system I'm also suffering from a very low temper, severe depression, sometimes suicidal thoughts. Life was so much better before I laid in bed all day playing criminal case. Tomorrow my best friend and I are traveling for a day trip we have wanted to do for a year now. And I have been trying to think when I can sneak in times to play. That was the breaking point when I realized this needs to be fixed now. I sure would love to get back on track with real estate :/